Tick tock....tick tock.....that's how slowly time feels like its moving. I am not surprised and didn't expect it to be moving any faster. Weekends are always long (which normally I yearn for but not these days)
Not much to report. Still no major symptoms. Breasts are heavy but don't have that "omg please don't hug me" feeling anymore. Trying really hard to continually drink water which means lots of bathroom trips. I have gone through some serious TP recently. No nausea. No exhaustion. Went to the grocery store today and the smell of roasted chicken was a bit overwhelming. Was that an increased sense of smell or just my intense disgust of chicken???
Was happy to be able to share my final follistim vial with another SMC who doesn't have any insurance coverage and is doing an injectible cycle. Happy to share my covered mediation but definitely made me think. I was accepting the fact (or trying to) that I won't need any more stim meds in the future. Or maybe that was me trying to move forward. To trust things and take baby steps to get excited about his pregnancy.
Ordered more prenatal vitamins and bought stock in pantiliners thanks to progesterone 3 times a day. Even if one wanted to attempt to take a mental break from this process, progesteone suppositories makes certain that doesn't happen.
I am focusing on today. The start of foootball season. The day that hopefully the Orioles make it to first place in the AL. The break in summer humidity. Today.
Of course, that pending blood test on Wednesday is in the back of my mind. And even closer in my mind is the pending infamous first ultrasound. Makes my heart race when I start to think about it too much.
10 days. 10 one day at a time days.
Thank goodness for football!!
Day by day...perhaps your subconscious is releasing. Releasing the fear. Move with it, Traci. Believe regardless of it all. Believing builds strength and character. I understand the trepidation...believe me I do. I love you!! Jew Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment on my blog and congrats on your success! One day at a time is the only way to get through this period - it's a lot tougher than I thought. The positive pregnancy test was really just the first hurdle but just keep doing what you're doing and try and focus on today. Each new day is a milestone - I'm hoping eventually things will start to feel more at ease. Hang in there!
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