Double Digits

Remember when you hit double digits as a kid?? It's like you did something miraculous without much effort.

BB turns 10 weeks today and I am proud of "her". Using that pronoun for lack of having to use both and I kinda feel like it is a girl (my son will hate me if I am wrong and he reads his birth story). Mostly things have been going well. Minimal symptoms which only include heavy breasts, excessive saliva, intermittent queasiness if I wait too long to eat and vivid dreams. The dreams are to the point that I don't sleep very well. Combined with the need to pee several times a night, sleeping isn't so restful. Although I don't have that "exhastion feeling"

Of my four other pregnancies (sounds overwhelming to actually type that), only one actually made it to 10 weeks when I miscarried at home. However, that pregnancy stopped growing at 6 weeks and never measured more than 6.5 weeks. The heartbeat was so faint that we could never hear it but my RE wouldn't do a D and C as long as a heartbeat was present. This is why it took 4 weeks to actually miscarry on my own. The most traumatic of all my pregnancies and I will not forget that day for many years.

So, hitting the 10 week mark is a milestone in itself. I told myself I would make it to 10 weeks without buggin my OB for an u/s. Guess who is getting an email Monday morning for a quick heartbeat check?? Next scheduled appointment isn't until October 31st. Way too far away!

CCRM is still weaning me off my meds. Dropped to only progesterone at night and 2 estrogen patches every other day. My progesterone actually increased to 31 this week after they dropped my progesteone from 3 pills to 2 pills. Shows my placenta is kicking in. Estrogen actually dropped so hopefully that's just a minor dip and will go back up this week.

BB is now the size of a prune (not such a great visual) and most of her organs are fully formed. Fingers and toes are formed and are no longer webbed. My uterus has grown to the size of a grapefruit which is why my pants don't fit!! BB will double in size in the next few weeks.

The anxiety of moving to the end of the first trimester is still there. It's hard to get rid of it totally. Another SMC friend asked me yesterday if I allowed myself to get excited. Excited about being pregnant? Yes. The idea of possibly having a baby? Not yet. Can't go there. Still too far away (30 weeks to be exact).

Will keep you posted on the u/s request from neurotic anxious pregnant lady!!