BB and I survived another week together!! I took my OB up on his "come over if you feel anxious and we will take a quick peek" We did. There "she" was again with a strong heartbeat of 174. I had vivid dreams again this week and actually dreamt that I was going back to CCRM to introduce them to my daughter. She was giggling on the floor and I could clearly see her beautifully frenchbraided black hair, cocoa skin and high cheek bones. Wish I could sketch so I could put my visual on paper.
CCRM has dropped me to one patch. One. I don't know what to do with all that space on my abdomen!! Still on one progesterone at night but my levels are holding steady. I suspect I will go off all patches by Wednesday and just on oral estrogen.
As one of my single mother friends stated, "there is a difference between being pregnant and feeling pregnant. Oh so true for this momma!! I love it when people tell me over and over again how lucky I am that I am having an easy first trimester. Drives me insane. I definitely started to pop this week and my "fat jeans" fit quite comfortably!! I had a work event last night that was cocktail attire. I attempted to wear a dress that I wore last November (black and low cut). Not, it was so tight, the boobs were everywhere and the belly was just popping out (even with spanx). Switched that quickly and I was way more comfortable and even danced to the amazing sounds of Jennifer Hudson live singing Whitney!! At the table, under my wrap (because most coworkers don't know) I kept holding BB and hoping she was enjoying the music.
I spent several hours catching up with my female cousin. Arbs (who has been SO supportive of my process) and is so excited about my "little zz pop" that she officially nicknamed my belly. We talked about the excitement of telling my grandmother and other family members. I must say I am SO lucky that all my family has been super supportive of my SMC decision. We talked about names of BB (none that I am ready to share online) and she felt many had Z sounds. Hence zz pop!!
Ready for the week to go fast! Ready to get week 12 going to I can have my NT 12 week scan on Halloween!
My thoughts are with another SMC getting ready to meet her Embies via FET this week at CCRM. Sending her good vibes and lighting a candle for her that she is as lucky as I am! Our SMC group really does became another family and everyone supports and cheers each other on from the sidelines. These women (including myself) have made an amazing decision to have a baby on their own. It shouldn't be this hard. But I guess life is hard.
Looking forward to seeing BB again in 10 days. Love you my sweet BB girl.
ZZ Pop....hilarious!
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