14 weeks!!

Three and a half months!! Seems short considering all the waiting I have been doing. I prefer saying 14 weeks. Seems longer.

Slowly starting to tell more and more people. I told my admin assistant last week as she was starting to schedule meetings into May. She is super sweet and doesn't share anything with other staff. Trust her completely. I will tell my management team on Wednesday. It's been getting harder to hide the bump which could be mistaken for too many French fries (in my opinion). The scary part about telling others is just the reality of it all. Not that I am actually having a baby but putting my HOPE out there that I actually DO have a baby.

I have been pretty private about this process except for those that read my blog (which is a select group of close friends and my SMC family). I will continue to keep the blog private. Telling more people just makes me more nervous. Not sure I can explain it. I do continue to share the news but the anxiety is still there.

I finally found some maternity clothes as Kohls and Old Navy. Not many but some staple pieces. Going to check out a super Target on the recommendation of a friend. Target itself had a pretty limited maternity section. On-line is an option but I prefer to try on the clothes. The jeans and top I wore last night made it pretty obvious that I was indeed pregnant. I went to listen to my friend Nelson of Nellys Echo (he tried out in the Voice this season). He was back for at a local venue and I had to go congratulate him. It was great to be "out" with bump leading the way. Hope baby enjoyed the music!!

I also start back with acupuncture tomorrow and looking forward to the calmness. The anxiety has been there especially waiting for the next u/s (17 days but who is counting). I have also been interviewing doulas and attempting to determine if I will need one. My OB is a bit concerned about my ability to actually have a vaginal delivery. Apparently,it's not all about birthing hips and more about your internal pelvic structure. Who knew!!?  Too early to really tell but a looking into doulas for now.

I guess I had a lot to share. Trying to go back to my one day at a time. This is a mantra I was sharing wi another SMC today as she goes through her FET. I need to remember this for myself as well.

I shared my news with a coworker who was leaving our agency. She bought me a picture frame for my u/s photo and here is the quote on the side of the frame:

" it is truly amazing how something so small could ignite a love so grand"